[He lets Jinwoo understand this on his own time, and doesn't interrupt until he gets the question in return. Ayato nods, one hand openly gesturing as he answers.]
Yes, and oddly enough, it wasn't just one memory, but three- almost one right after the other. About an entire part of my past life I'd never even knew I was missing.
Who's to say there won't be more, as time goes on?
[A pause, and he debates on how to continue.]
The reason I'm telling you this is because of what I've finally gotten back, it's made me realize- I've been playing the part of a neutral party for too long. [This is important.] The Order is moving, I'm sure you've noticed. How they've given more assertive missions recently, how they've begun to notice our numbers dwindling. Soon enough, they'll consider taking action in a far more physical sense.
[The Order does not like to lose things it has a hold of, and Kaisou is something that is slowly slipping out of its grasp.]
If I want to protect what I've gotten here in Kaisou- friendships, trust, a way to feel hope again, a desire to fight for what I believe in, a team who I actually care for- then I can't exactly stay on the sidelines anymore, now can I?
And so, I'm coming to you to be as transparent as I can, because trust is what is going to keep all of us standing through whatever is going to come. [He pauses at this, lets the words sit for a moment so Jinwoo can parse them, then continues.] What this means is that if you have any questions- about me, my past, the work the Black Order had me do- anything at all, I will answer them.
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Yes, and oddly enough, it wasn't just one memory, but three- almost one right after the other. About an entire part of my past life I'd never even knew I was missing.
Who's to say there won't be more, as time goes on?
[A pause, and he debates on how to continue.]
The reason I'm telling you this is because of what I've finally gotten back, it's made me realize- I've been playing the part of a neutral party for too long. [This is important.] The Order is moving, I'm sure you've noticed. How they've given more assertive missions recently, how they've begun to notice our numbers dwindling. Soon enough, they'll consider taking action in a far more physical sense.
[The Order does not like to lose things it has a hold of, and Kaisou is something that is slowly slipping out of its grasp.]
If I want to protect what I've gotten here in Kaisou- friendships, trust, a way to feel hope again, a desire to fight for what I believe in, a team who I actually care for- then I can't exactly stay on the sidelines anymore, now can I?
And so, I'm coming to you to be as transparent as I can, because trust is what is going to keep all of us standing through whatever is going to come. [He pauses at this, lets the words sit for a moment so Jinwoo can parse them, then continues.] What this means is that if you have any questions- about me, my past, the work the Black Order had me do- anything at all, I will answer them.