Sung Jin-Woo (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lowestclass) wrote2023-06-15 06:23 pm
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He listens to Ayato when he talks--running through a Hypothetical that... catches his attention. His head comes up, and he tilts it, a little to the side. ]
Well.
It was almost eleven years ago when I was ...'Recruited' by the order. That's when my memories started. Even now I find myself getting 'new' ones, but. Usually they always tie-in to old ones I've had, or they're bits of context I've missed out on.
[ he focuses down at the table a little because--no, this isn't what he expected Ayato to bring up at all. And yet... ]
You're saying you've been getting new ones that aren't close to anything you've already remembered?
Like a ... section of your life that'd been missing?
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Yes, and oddly enough, it wasn't just one memory, but three- almost one right after the other. About an entire part of my past life I'd never even knew I was missing.
Who's to say there won't be more, as time goes on?
[A pause, and he debates on how to continue.]
The reason I'm telling you this is because of what I've finally gotten back, it's made me realize- I've been playing the part of a neutral party for too long. [This is important.] The Order is moving, I'm sure you've noticed. How they've given more assertive missions recently, how they've begun to notice our numbers dwindling. Soon enough, they'll consider taking action in a far more physical sense.
[The Order does not like to lose things it has a hold of, and Kaisou is something that is slowly slipping out of its grasp.]
If I want to protect what I've gotten here in Kaisou- friendships, trust, a way to feel hope again, a desire to fight for what I believe in, a team who I actually care for- then I can't exactly stay on the sidelines anymore, now can I?
And so, I'm coming to you to be as transparent as I can, because trust is what is going to keep all of us standing through whatever is going to come. [He pauses at this, lets the words sit for a moment so Jinwoo can parse them, then continues.] What this means is that if you have any questions- about me, my past, the work the Black Order had me do- anything at all, I will answer them.
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He leans in a little as the other brings up... how the Order moves. From his perspective, Ayato's always been a wild card. The 'Fixer' of the order was quiet--severe, even, when he smiled with a look on his face that said twice as much as what few words he spoke did. Not many people in the order made him nervous; but Ayato was certainly one of them.
But now to be told he cares about Kaisou's team--no. He wants to be... transparent about things? For what? To--show his sincerity, or. Is he ... looking for information... ? ]
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...It must have taken a lot of thought to approach me like this. Because of that, I'll take it as a proof of your sincerity. That you want something that the rest of us in Kaisou want--to protect those in the Order here, as well as those on the Zodiac app.
...
That is, to say. Sangsa...
...Tell me, how do you feel about the Order, as it currently stands?
About its leaderships, the way it recruits its members--the way it treats its current members?
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He notes how Jinwoo refers to him and blinks- Ayato may not know Korean, but he can note the difference. Ayato-nim to Sangsa is an incredible change, and he isn't about to take that lightly. There is a nod here, one that is respectful and also thankful that Jinwoo is willing to listen. As for the questions- it takes him a long second to find how to explain himself, exhaling and closing his eyes for a brief second. Then, he opens them again.]
If I were to name my feelings in a few words about everything you asked, it would be this: Absolutely vile.
[That... is a very strong set of words for a man who tends to be very neutral in his language. Ayato pauses, gesturing again with his hands, eyes firm and voice steady.]
The actions the Order takes are ones I've always disagreed with. Be it through recruitment, how they treat others, the leadership itself- I've despised it since the day I was forced to become a member. And while I am aware and agree that the Order is a form of necessity for those who need it, I also know what it is like to run a similar organization but do so with consideration and utmost care.
[He looks at Jinwoo at that, head tilting as he lets that information sit in the silence between them. He really hasn't told many people how much he hates being forced into this. To act as their mediator because otherwise he'd cause problems, and they had better uses for people like him and knew exactly what to use to keep them in line.]
Does my answer surprise you? I'm aware of how people perceive me due to the names I've been given. [Names he never wanted. Names he hated with every fiber of his being.] But the fact of the matter is that despite my reputation, I have never once truly been glad or thankful to work for the Black Order. None of it was ever my choice to begin with.
[Just like so many others.]
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And yet, hearing all this directly from his mouth? It's akin to culture shock. He has no idea how he should react to it other than to just stare at him, open-faced. ]
I had assumed you were much like some of the other higher-ups in the Order. That you enjoyed this job and found comfort in working for the Order due to the position you held.
I.
...I admit I was wrong, and I may have judged you wrongly for it, Sangsa.
If I were to make an assumption, it should be that I should have thought you were forced into this like most of us were, as well.
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I can't blame you. I didn't exactly help matters in how I acted towards people- and I'm sure the higher-ups kept my own history in coming to the Order on a "need to know" basis. To be fair, the only people here who know of my entire induction into the Order are Lapis and Fugo. I've been rather secluded from the group before now, hence why I'm realizing I can't sit back and let whatever happens to people just happen.
[There's a pause here, and he crosses his arms. He makes sure there's no eyes or ears on them both before he continues.]
Jinwoo, my story is like so many others in the Order. I was taken under threat of being sealed while I sat by my father's deathbed in a hospital in Hokkaido. My family is one who knows about the supernatural, and our home served as a sort of refuge for creatures that needed a place to relax or recover. I was to take over my father's place eventually as the head of the estate and the main host to any guests who showed up and needed help.
Unfortunately, the protection we usually had broke the night I was found. My father ended up in the hospital due to our family being taken advantage of by a wandering vampire hiding from a werewolf. My oldest sister and I were essentially dominated and given specific orders when he was trying to hide. She was told "Hide me," while my order was "Leave," as I had followed after her in concern when I saw her move. The order had me turn around and leave the room she was in, and left me essentially trapped in my own body for over two minutes. [Ayato exhales, thinking of what to say next.] As you can imagine, I did not fare well with this and the memories of my past life came back. [It reminded him of the assassination attempts made on him in the early days of re-establishing the Kamisato Clan's reputation, and bringing honor to the Yashiro Commission once again.] The werewolf ended up finding the vampire on the estate grounds and chased him everywhere, ruining several things in the process- and also causing my father to collapse from a faint heart.
That was how the Order found me. But I wasn't assigned to this position from the start.
[He pauses here, if only because he wants to give Jinwoo time to ask any questions he may have from the information he's been so far. Better to talk in pieces rather than tell the whole thing immediately and hope for the best.]