Sung Jin-Woo (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lowestclass) wrote2023-06-15 06:23 pm
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He might be weak but his demonic half gave him a pretty hardy constitution these days. ]
That's why you kept having nightmares.
I'm not sure how much you remember, but you kept waking up a lot this week, saying you had nightmares about shadows and the sound of bells.
But that you could never remember the details.
[ he's gonna slide a thumb over Lapis' knuckles. His expression goes ugly. ]
...he's one of the ones who expects you to be some beast for the order.
And that's not going to happen. You know that's not going to happen.
He, and the other monsters like him, don't own you.
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And she's quiet for a moment, her hands squeezing around his as she tries to take those deep breaths. Remember what dad told you, remember what he said - ]
No, it's... All a blur, when I woke up from those nightmares. But it would've... Been from when I first - [ She pauses, trembling, her hands clinging tight around his. ]
He was behind me, holding onto the scythe. He wouldn't let go unless I finished it...
[ Always behind her, that looming shadow and those jingle of those bells. The man that forced her to take all her feelings and lock them away, lest her soul tore under the pressure of it all. Who sees her as this beast, a God to bring the Order to greater heights.
Her skin crawls thinking about it, and she bites hard on her lip to try to keep some calm. She's furious, she's distressed, she wants to scream and cry and - ]
They don't. They don't own me. [ She repeats, taking another deep breath as she spits out the following words; ]
He calls me a "Goddess" and it makes my skin crawl. I don't... want to be that.
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[ there's ... a quietly pained look on Jinwoo's face. He's not... completely hands-clean. He's had to kill for the Order before, too, but. The difference was, he wasn't ever cornered and told it was going to be his future, that he was going to be a tool.
It was more about proving he wasn't a total coward, along with being weak. Like everything else in his life, he ran on pure spite to keep moving; and that included the awful missions he's had to do in florida for ten years.
He can't imagine what it's like to be someone who was under actual grooming to be a pet monster for the order, and it makes his hackles raise at the very idea. ]
Remember.
We're going to get through this. Make a change with the Order, with Jusis.
And then Zhongli is going to help us get our freedom.
That's what you're going to be.
Free.
So don't let those nightmares catch up to you. Because they won't. They never will.
And at this point...
If Mr. Dickson and this Mr. Douman aren't new allies, then they're just another pair of Teresas.
...And they need to die, too.
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There's still part of her that believes that; that this is the only life for something like her. But Jinwoo keeps talking of freedom, not just for him but for her as well, and it makes her hope that little bit more. ]
I... I still find it hard to think about, sometimes. Being free. But I want to be.
[ That she can just be herself, and not a beast of the Order. But before then - ]
And Douman needs to die for that. I want to be free of this nightmare, and I don't want him hurting anyone else. Him, and Dickson.
[ There's anxiety, at the thought of facing Douman again now that she remembers. But the anger is greater; she'll make him pay for every little thing he put her thought. ]
We'll kill them ourselves, this time. I don't care what the Order does, they deserve to die for what they've done to the people here.